Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Films I've seen in the last two months

I need to keep record or a running list of the films I watch to help with my study of film language.

The bold are the best! Over the last two weeks I've seen:

Terminator (1984) 
Terminator 2: Judgement Day (1991)
Unbreakable (2000)
Game of Thrones: Season 1-4
The Lobster (2016)
Take Care (2014)
Elizabeth: The Golden Age (2007)
Being Mary Jane: Season 3
Failure to Launch (2006)
The Girl King (2015)
The Abyss (1989) - best James Cameron movie EVER
Love (2016) Season 1
That's Not Us (2015)
Palm Trees in the Snow (2015)
Everything Before Us (2016) -great concept!!!
The Best Offer  (2013) - STELLAR story/movie/concept/acting <3
Four of Hearts (2013)
The Rebound (2009) - I could see this movie 1,000
La Mujer de mi Hermano (2005)
Pierre Le Fou (1965)
Breathless (1960)

If I had to pick one that impacted me the most, it would be the last one. I saw it at Cinefamily one night and it totally blew my mind. It's so absurd and weird and complex and beautiful. It's amazing. It's the best depiction of wild love I've ever seen.

Hope you're watching some good movies!

Love & Cancer

My new job is all about cancer. Pediatric cancer, cancer in families, cancer treatment, the list goes on...Part of my work is to look into any google alerts about cancer news and one day I stumbled upon the page for this documentary about a couple's journey through cancer. The images are awesome and fascinating. You can see the surgery and them taking out a piece of his scull and the tumor. You can see the recovery process and how his wife took care of him.

True romance.

In this picture he's taking some kind of bath to as part of his treatment. I don't know the details but if you want to know more and see more (which I hope you do) check out the page.

Good Bones

by Maggie Smith

Life is short, though I keep this from my children.
Life is short, and I’ve shortened mine
in a thousand delicious, ill-advised ways,
a thousand deliciously ill-advised ways
I’ll keep from my children. The world is at least
fifty percent terrible, and that’s a conservative
estimate, though I keep this from my children.
For every bird there is a stone thrown at a bird.
For every loved child, a child broken, bagged,
sunk in a lake. Life is short and the world
is at least half terrible, and for every kind
stranger, there is one who would break you,
though I keep this from my children. I am trying
to sell them the world. Any decent realtor,
walking you through a real shithole, chirps on
about good bones: This place could be beautiful,

right? You could make this place beautiful.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Lost and found

I was feeling quite lost a few weeks ago. Which is so silly considering how clearly convicted I feel about moving here - it being God's divine calling on my life.

I just don't see the why? (Sometimes I think I will say anything to distance myself from God's play...)

I have to be careful with my heart because sometimes emotions can lead me very much astray. If I'm not careful I can fall down a rabit whole that makes me feel some pretty terrible things. I'm grateful, my thoughts have changed.

For the first time in my life, I've felt pretty single. I pretty much live alone. If I got cancer or needed someone to take me to the doctor it would be pretty hard to find someone to drop everything and take care of me. Not sure who will be at my funeral or even make those arrangements. I've just felt pretty alone lately...and lost.

There is this word that keeps coming up in my Bible study lately and it's the word: USEFUL. Am I making myself useful? To people at work, to my church, to my neighborhood, to actors? Or am I using them for me, to make me happy and satisfied? What kind of life is worth pursuing? A life of pleasure and happiness or a life in service to others? There is a balance...I know that now. And I also know that in whatever season I find myself in, my job is to serve and be useful or a blessing to others. And to never forget the reason why I moved down here...to be closer to Jesus. To do His will. To answer the call I heard at eleven years old.

Make movies Ashley.

I voted!

For the first time ever! I'm kinda excited about this election. Can't wait to live under our first FEMALE PRESIDENT!!!



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